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Sedar tak sedar dah 27 hari kita melalui tahun 2012.. Strangely it’s been the same old routine for me but i can feel the difference in the atmosphere.. i tend to think about the future more & more.. what the future have in store for me & for us.. well.. better don’t dwell in it so much, don’t wanna jinx it *wink*

Anyways, I’m excited because in a few weeks my family will be coming. Yay!! I love having them around once in a while.. keeps things from getting mundane around here.

Have to lose some weight before they come, u know, to give room for all the food they’ll stuff in me (yelah tu) later.

Time to get some zzz.. have an early date tomoro.. xo

Demam

Uhuk uhuk…

Hmm.. Kami berdua sama2 kurang sihat 2-3 hari ni.. Dimulakan dgn batuk tanpa henti dr yours truly for almost two weeks (yang dibawak balik khas dr kpg).. Jangkit by si dia semalam yg mula batuk2 n demam.. And today i pulak yg rase nak demam walopun batuk dh takde..

Doakan kami cepat sembuh ye..

psst: i tidied up the second room with all the intentions to make it my private sanctuary.. I’m not sure it’s working though coz her stuff are all over the place!

The good old times

Hiks.. Sy sudah kembali..

What to do.. Ofis lama tu xde wifi, blogs pulak kena block so tak dan la nak update ni..

Now that i’m back to being independent & doing what i love the most which is chart analyzing bolehla i start meroyan balik kat sini hiks..

I do miss the good old times.. Bukan setakat waktu sekolah je, and to tell u the truth, i do not miss my school years as much as my college years. Yes, i think that was my prime years. I miss my matrix friends n my u friends.. Who are probably my best buds now.. Of course, i’m that type of person yang ada lotsa friends from school, matrix n college and cant seem to mix them in one room. I lebih selesa to just spend one afternoon with my school friends, another with my matrix friends n the rest of the week with my college friends. I admire people who can just throw the whole bunch into one room and let them mix around for themselves. I cant do that, i’ll have anxiety attacks just thinking who i should talk to first, and how long i should spend with each of them.. Takut ada yg terasa and so forth..

I have one friend who always does that. And i’ll feel awkward whenever i join her n her childhood friends.. Though i do know them somewhat from her stories, from fb.. but to go out with them, all 10 of them.. Now how weird would it be.. There i was sitting at the farthest corner just smiling at whatever they are saying no matter how hilarious because i could not bring myself past my awkwardness. And they’ll think that i was so quiet.. And they’ll notice how uncomfortable i am.. And they’ll start slowing down n eventually all will just engage in small talks and i’ll be the worst spoilsport of the day and i’ll feel more n more uncomfortable and feeling bad that i have spoilt the day for them.. When in fact i wasnt that quiet n boring at all. I can be witty and bold and funny as hell.. Well, no i wont be if you have known me just for a day or two.. But i would be if u are one of my close friends.

Ah, Now what was i saying? Yes.. The good old times.. I miss being in my own bedroom, Untouched, just me with a book on my laps, enjoying my solitude, this place, this room, as small as it may seem. Is mine. ME written all over it. *sigh*

It’s different now that i’m here, away from home.. Which i’m not sure whether it is home anymore, or is my place here with her..? Is this home? I certainly feel that i belong with her now.. That here with her is home. But i do miss that small place which is me. Maybe i should rearrange that second bedroom and make it my private room.. Hmm..

Selamat pergi selamat kembali..

WOWOWOWOHHH…

Edisi kesunyian kembali lagik. Si dia pegi company trip this weekend, balik Monday nanti. Grrrr… time long weekend ni la dia nak blah kan. Apa aku nak wat sorang2 3 hari ni… oh-oh-oh. Kawan tu pulak roaming kat sane.. nak tepon pon mahal.. men texting2 jah ni.. xbest tol..

Kawan2 memasing ade pasangan.. i tak suke jadik third wheel nih.. awkward jek. sudah tiadakah orang single sebaya haku nih.. (eleh, senirik pun x single, sebok jek.. hiks)

skrg ni i tgh aktif carik rumah, almaklum dah sampai umurnya kan nak mula kumpul harta. susah gak yek nak carik rumah kat kl nih. bajet tak cukup katenye kan. nak buat caner. cari2 la lagi yg sesuai. kalo ikutkan rumah dlm bajet tu ade, tp lokasi x strategik la pulak. lagi2 utk keje i ni yg ke hulu ke hilir. kenela carik lokasi kat tgh2. actually i nak carik yg dkt2 ngan rumah sewa ni jek. adela yg i tgh usha2. rumahnye biase aje, tp lokasi mmg cantek sgt.

si dia pulak suke rumah kat area yg agak jauhla dari area skrg. still tgh2 tapi terkenal dgn jem nya. rumah tu mmg cantek, tapi agak kecil & terpencil. belum ade tren lg kat situ, projek dijangka siap lagi 2-3 thn. kawasan belum develop, mungkin in a few years naiklah valuenya nanti, i can see a good opportunity for investment situ.. malangnya utk masa skrg ni agak x sesuai pulak rasanye rumah tu dgn i. trafik jem yg menggile tu mmg sangatla tak convenient jugak. *sigh* if in few years time value rumah ni naik, i akan tersenyum sumbing jekla.. what to do.. kalo ade duit extra bolehla nak beli, ini cukup2 je.. *sigh* xpe, xpe.. sila aplikasikan konsep bersyukur & bersabar di sini (pesanan utk diri sendirik)..

cukup meroyan, nak main2 dgn little bunnies plak. yep, si P Bun selamat beranak 4 ekor. Rasa macam baru je hari tu si P Bun ni diberanakkan, skrg dia pulak yg beranak. Si kecik yg dulu kecik tapak tangan aku je, skrg ni dah jadi ibu. Mmm.. at least terubat la rindu kat K Jr & T Bun yg dah RIP aritu. Lagi2 ade anak die 3 ekor ni mmg kopipes dorang bertiga dulu, how cute. But our favorite tentula si muke belang itu.. lain dari yang lain. Manje lak tu. selalu silap ingat jari aku ni puting susu hohoh. Kiut sgt. Yang ni kemungkinan besar akan stay dgn ktorang sekali dgn Mr K. Yg lain2 tu mak mertua i dah reserve, dari yang generasi kedua aritu dah mengeneng2 nakkan dorang nih, tak kesampaian pulak. xpela, tunggula generasi ketiga nih.

Mmm.. hari dah lewat malam. Si dia pulak dh senyap dah. Janji tinggal janji jer nak chatting mlm ni. Hmm..

 

 

RIP T Bun

This is a delayed entry. T Bun left us 2 weeks ago, again for unknown reason.

It breaks my heart to see my little girl go. May you rest in peace little one. Mommy loves you.

Hari ini dalam jem ep: 6

Sabo jela motor pagi tadi langgar side mirror aku lagikk.. *sigh* nasib baik takde pape, kalo x moyan gak kalo dua2 side mirror rosak. *sigh*

RIP K jr

Dalam pada me & my other half sedang happy2 di kala musim perayaan & cuti2 malaysia ni, malam tadi weols dikejutkan dgn pemergian our little boy, K jr. Dia mati mengejut, he didn’t show any peculiar symptoms whatsoever. Amat mengejutkan. Sampai sekarang xtau sebab ape dia mati. He was a wondrous little boy, 9 months old in age, active & mesra with ppl.

We will miss you, dear one. RIP.

Hari ini dalam jem ep:5

Patut tukar tajuk hari ini tak ada jem, atau hari ini ada jem tapi sikit saja serupa x ada jem.

Di kesempatan ini, I ingin memohon maaf sekiranya terkasar bahasa tersinggung perasaan pembaca2 semua. Selamat hari raya aidilfitri & maaf zahir batin. Duit raya tadak sbb saya belom kawen..

*mood raya dah mula woohooo*

Hari ini dalam jem ep:4

Pesanan kepada kl drivers: make up your mind, people! Kalo nak slow masok lane kiri, kalo nak laju masokla lane kanan, kalo ko tak sure masok lane tgh, jgnla ko drive tgh2 garisan pastu kejap masuk lane kiri kejap masuk lane kanan pastu drive atas garisan balik. Ko ingat ko sorang bawak kete kat sini? Atau ko feeling2 motor bajet kecik nak jalan tgh2 macam tu? Nan hado hokkayyy..

Hari ini dalam jem ep:3

Di satu pagi yang gelap beberapa hari lepas, aku driving macam biasa kat jalan biase ni.. Tibe2 ade satu motor ni elok je lalu celah2 kereta pi langgar side mirror kanan aku. Si*lan tollll.. Sampai hari ni side mirror tu rosak dah tak boleh lipat betul dah.

Mencik tol aku kat mat2 motor ni. Dah banyak dah calar2 kat kete aku ni disebabkan dorang. Dahla berlagak macam bagus je kat jalan, kurang ajar pulak tu. Kalau kte tgh belok ni kene tunggu dia dulu dahla suka hati dia nak melintang kat tgh jalan, laju pulak tu. Pastu bila agak2 bahaya sikit salahkan kita pulak padahal dia yang melintang menonggeng kat jalan tu. Geram aku. Majoriti yang perangai macam setan ni mesti lelaki melayu. Hari2 kuar berita laki pukul pompuan, pukul bini, nak bunuh anak la, rogol lagi.. Brp kerat je yang bukan lelaki melayu? *sigh* melalut dah aku nih..

Sabar.. Sabar.. Bawak2la bertenang.. Kalo dah agak2 takleh tahan tu, alang2 kete dah rosak, kasi bukak je pintu tgh jalan tibe2 biar jatuh sekor2, puas ati aku.